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[klena]

So ask me.

Ask me anything.

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[angelbirdemmi.livejournal.com]

Are you doing alright, Klena?

[kalidor.livejournal.com]

Why are ye so adorable, lass?

[marlinkhylacat]

Are you looking forward to the next year of your life?

[urbanelf.livejournal.com]

What thoughts have been making your gears turn? In the good ways and the bad, what's been going through your head? How do you feel from moment to moment? What do you think about when you look at a full moon? Do the stars in the sky seem to twinkle directly at you at times?

[hartclanpaladin.livejournal.com]

What next artwise Wifey?

[blindeadmcjones.livejournal.com]

Are you a vegetarian?

[ryutsuki.livejournal.com]

Who are you and why did you decide to friend ryutsuki? :D

[klena.livejournal.com]

I know I've been very down in my last few posts when I don't really mean to be. Well, it is the way I was feeling at the time but I'm not always like that, promise!

I'm doing fine, dear. Actually I'm doing more than fine at the minute because Matt was here tonight and only left about an hour ago and it was...nice. Very nice. So he's made me feel much better.

So, yes I'm doing fine. More than fine. Yeah, I'm still having minature heart-failures thinking about moving country for uni (3-4 weekswhat?) and I'm trying to deal with this *truth* that my life's going to change in a huge way in a short time and I'm dealing with life and work and, hey, that boyfriend thing! but yeah.

I rambled. Sorry. Yes. I'm very good, dear. ♥

And are you doing OK?

[klena.livejournal.com]

LIES AND UNTRUTHS~!

I am not adorable and I can't believe people think that about me. I really can't. And I'm not really. I'm just me and adorable isn't anywhere in what I believe to be me but I guess I'll just have to accept that people see something like that in me.

IT'S STILL NOT TRUE~! :D

[kalidor.livejournal.com]

IT'S STILL NOT TRUE~! :D

Bullocks!

[klena.livejournal.com]

I...

That's *hard*. I mean...Well, obviously putting aside the fog of denial that I have at the minute about the whole thing, yes and no. What a stupid answer! But it is true. I mean, I can't wait to go and do the studying thing again and I can't wait to start studying Japanese, wow, I really can't and I've heard so many fantastic things about Leeds and I know people are right when they say that my whole *world* is going to expand in the next few weeks, I know they are.

On the other hand, I can't...I mean, I'm having trouble with my life here. Or rather, the thought of leaving it. I mean, McDonalds has been my life for the past 10 months and I got all these amazing friends and, gods help me, a boyfriend out of it (and I'll talk about him in a sec) and then I've got my fucking *family* here, as much as they drive me crazy and hurt me and help me and love me and then I've got the people who've been my friends for *years* and I'm leaving everything I've ever known. I've never been to Leeds, I've never lived in a large city and Leeds is fucking HUGE compared to Downpatrick. And my new McDonalds - will they like me?

And then there's Matt who, yeah, has fucked me about and isn't exactly the world's best boyfriend but he's still my boyfriend and I care about him so much and I love being with him and just, y'know?

So there's my answer. Yes I am - I can't wait, it's going to be *amazing* and it's a whole other world and no, I'm terrified and I just want to stay here and be with Matt and work and be with those I love. But change is what makes us the people we are, ne? So that's what I feel. Does it make sense?

[klena.livejournal.com]

UTTER WORLD DOMINATION.

I mean...

I've been wanting to do more fanart for *all* the fandoms I flail over so expect Digimon, CLAMP, Saiyuki, Wolf's Rain, Bebop, Escaflowne, Zelda, FMA and Final Waltz art, if I can manage it!

[klena.livejournal.com]

As much as I'd like to be, I'm not, no.

I totally admire people with the strength to say, 'hey, no. I'm not eating meat as I think it's wrong' but I don't have that strength myself. And sometimes I just can't bring myself to eat meat but that's just me being weird sometimes. Also seeing programs about slaughter don't really help the appetite very much!

I think the reason I could never really be vegetarian is that I have a hard time linking the meat on my plate with the animals I see almost every day. Does that make sense?

Are you a vegetarian, dear?

[klena.livejournal.com]

Who am I?

Well, in short (or as short as I can make it) I'm a 19 year old, female, arty, Northern Irish girl who currently works at McDonalds, is preparing to move country for university and an utter fangirl. Especially for Zelda, Saiyuki, slash!, Final Waltz, CLAMP and Harry Potter. :D

Why did I decide to friend you, my dear? I guess because I'd seen you on some other communities I was in and you seemed pretty awesome so I thought, 'why not?'! Also, all fans of Zelda!slash are A-OK in my book! ;D

And now you! Who are you and why did you decide to friend klena back?

[klena.livejournal.com]

Recently the thoughts that have been making my head turn have been weird. (A week's holiday from work really screws the mind over!) I've been thinking about moving away, about leaving parties, work, going to Leeds, how to go to Leeds, my accomodation, what I'm going to take with me, how I can leave my home, why it doesn't hit me more, why is it hurting my family so much?, work, my friends, change and it's nature, Matt, Matt doing his floor managers exam, not hearing from Matt, Matt coming up tonight and staying until about an hour ago, leaving, university, preparation, art, slash, worrying I'm not demonstrating I care enough. Y'know. The usual! ^_^

From moment to moment I change. In the space of a heartbeat I can go from worrying whether or not someone cares to desiring affection to needing consoling for no reason to thinking about leaving. I feel what I need to feel at that moment and then I try to deal with it.

When I look at a full moon I feel young and insignificant and artistic and I want to paint exactly what I see and how it feels so people will always remember that moment, even if they were never there and I want to see the world and I want never to change and I want this lifetime to last forever and I want to do everything and be with people and be close to someone and know that someone cares and not feel so young nor so old nor so amazed.

And I never seen the stars twinkle at me - I've never felt that I'm enough for stars to do that but I have watched the stars and just looked and wondered at the universe and watched the Milky Way above my head and never felt so small a vessel for such vast emotion.

I love the icon, love~! I'm glad you liked the art. ♥

[waxrose.livejournal.com]

What is your favorite time of year?

[darthzal.livejournal.com]

What will you do with your photo wall? Will it go with you to Leeds? =^^=

[angelbirdemmi.livejournal.com]

Mm. Well, I was doing fine, besides the having a horrible head cold. But I had a major breakdown last night. I'm okay now, though.

That's okay, I tend to ramble alot, too.

[blindeadmcjones.livejournal.com]

I'm a post-modern vegetarian: I eat meat, ironically. :D

... I swear I didn't ask you that question just to set up a Bill Bailey quote. >>

I do understand what you mean about not linking the two together. I have to think about that sometimes. I'm not uncomfortable with it though. I dunno, maybe I should feel squicky about it, but I just don't. Plus it tastes nice. XD So no, I'm not a vegetarian.

[marlinkhylacat]

Considering I am going through the exact same things...perfect sense, love. =D

[ryutsuki.livejournal.com]

19, female, arty, American (half Native American) girl who currently works at JC Penny Portrait Studio, is currently attending the Art Institute of Pittsburgh for a major in photography. Fangirls, sometimes, but only to Zelda nowadays.

;)

And why did I decide to friend klena back? Simple reason: why not? I like new people! :)

[klena.livejournal.com]

(woe that work destroys my net life)

I know this is a late reply but are you doing OK now? I'm more than happy to listen to you dear, even if you ramble and tangent.

[klena.livejournal.com]

I'm glad. It's so much harder than I thought it would be

[klena.livejournal.com]

My photo wall will be taken down and brought with me to Leeds. I mean, it has to go. 'Cause, that's like...I mean, that's my life on that wall. It's who I love and the really memorable days and the times I knew things and when I was lost and my *people* and it's love.

Does that make sense? Oh, and could I get another photo to put up on my wall? ♥

[klena.livejournal.com]

(hallo love ♥)

I don't really have one. I mean that by I don't have a time of year that stands out when that question is asked.

I guess I love Winter for y'know, Christmas and my birthday and sentimental reasons and the snow and the lights at Belfast and curling up inside beside a fire with a huge mug of tea.

But then I love Summer for barbeques and sunlight and joy and freedom and birthdays and relaxing.

Autumn for the colours and the change and the nature of change and learning ('cause, School starts) and Hallowe'en and, hey did I mention the colours?

And then Spring for the showers and the new life and the mythos behind it and the new beginnings.

I make no sense, my dear. I am sorry. But I'm guessing Winter is probably my time.

What about yours?

[klena.livejournal.com]

Wow! You sound *awesome*~! Ah Zelda~! Such love!

:D

Good enough reason! It's cool to meet you! =D

[klena.livejournal.com]

...

*Dies* hahahahahahahaha, I KNEW that was Bailey! Oh such love for him!

o rly? ^_~

I'm glad you got that! And I totally understand what you mean. Sometimes in work I go '....I'm not sure about this' but it never sticks.

I liked that question! :D

[angelbirdemmi.livejournal.com]

Hah. Yeah, I'm alright now, school starts in a few days, so once I get back there I should be back to perfect.

Thanks for the offer, though, I'll make sure to take you up on it next time.

[angelbirdemmi.livejournal.com]

I know this is late, and it's another question.

But when you get to Leeds, will you tell me about it? I'm a prospective student and it's nice to have someone whose actually studying there.

[klena.livejournal.com]

I never have a problem with late questions.

Oh my dear, of course! It's going to be such a big part of my life I'm gonna have to talk about it. Is there anything in particular you want me to tell you?

Are you thinking of going to Leeds or just uni in general?
(hahaha, scholarly icon!)

[klena.livejournal.com]

I am glad. School does seem to help. Or rather, I guess the routine does? And studying and learning helps the brain.

Any time dear.

[waxrose.livejournal.com]

halllooooo. ♥ :)

Awww, good answer. Hmm, I guess I'd have to say fall. I like the begining of school and the colors and the way the air smells so crisp and fresh.