Recently the thoughts that have been making my head turn have been weird. (A week's holiday from work really screws the mind over!) I've been thinking about moving away, about leaving parties, work, going to Leeds, how to go to Leeds, my accomodation, what I'm going to take with me, how I can leave my home, why it doesn't hit me more, why is it hurting my family so much?, work, my friends, change and it's nature, Matt, Matt doing his floor managers exam, not hearing from Matt, Matt coming up tonight and staying until about an hour ago, leaving, university, preparation, art, slash, worrying I'm not demonstrating I care enough. Y'know. The usual! ^_^
From moment to moment I change. In the space of a heartbeat I can go from worrying whether or not someone cares to desiring affection to needing consoling for no reason to thinking about leaving. I feel what I need to feel at that moment and then I try to deal with it.
When I look at a full moon I feel young and insignificant and artistic and I want to paint exactly what I see and how it feels so people will always remember that moment, even if they were never there and I want to see the world and I want never to change and I want this lifetime to last forever and I want to do everything and be with people and be close to someone and know that someone cares and not feel so young nor so old nor so amazed.
And I never seen the stars twinkle at me - I've never felt that I'm enough for stars to do that but I have watched the stars and just looked and wondered at the universe and watched the Milky Way above my head and never felt so small a vessel for such vast emotion.
I love the icon, love~! I'm glad you liked the art. ♥
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Date: 2006-08-21 02:21 am (UTC)From moment to moment I change. In the space of a heartbeat I can go from worrying whether or not someone cares to desiring affection to needing consoling for no reason to thinking about leaving. I feel what I need to feel at that moment and then I try to deal with it.
When I look at a full moon I feel young and insignificant and artistic and I want to paint exactly what I see and how it feels so people will always remember that moment, even if they were never there and I want to see the world and I want never to change and I want this lifetime to last forever and I want to do everything and be with people and be close to someone and know that someone cares and not feel so young nor so old nor so amazed.
And I never seen the stars twinkle at me - I've never felt that I'm enough for stars to do that but I have watched the stars and just looked and wondered at the universe and watched the Milky Way above my head and never felt so small a vessel for such vast emotion.
I love the icon, love~! I'm glad you liked the art. ♥