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klenaI tried to post this 5 times last night. But the computer, actually the internet had a fit so I gave up....Huh, I think this is the earliest I've been up since I got home from Florida. Huh.
Oh look - last night's post!
[Last night]I did two and a half hours of ironing voluntarily today, just so mum wouldn't get up and do it. Huh.
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hartclanpaladin's birthday folks! Everyone give him a hand - or catgirls ^_~ Your Jedi Mind Tricks don't work on me Skywalker, ahahahaha~!
I feel better. Slightly. However life keeps smacking me in the face witha giant kipper reminders that I'm growing up. Bollocks to the power of bollocks, my friends!
I now have a blister on my thumb of my drawing hand (the right one) but I'm determined to get the drawbles done. *nods*
The next time Camp Fuck You Die is opening up for applications I am there like a bullet. A BULLET.
Now, since it's going around....
1. I have become famous (or infamous?) for walking home:
in the rain without using my umbrella,
wearing a top hat,
ranting on my phone about something bizarre or
singing loudly - usually in English, sometimes in Japanese.
2. I need music on when I do things - like when I clean or when I do homework or...anything really. I listen to music almost constantly except when I'm around people.
3. I have a wall of photos - Zal's seen it - of the people I love and random funny photos. My dream is to have a photograph of everyone I know and love on that wall someday
4. My parents went through a stage of thinking I was gay and questioning me on it. They're over it now...I think.
5. My friends talked and they agreed that I can come off as intimidating. It's a first impression thing.
6. When I fall for something (like a fandom) I fall hard and I fall fast and submerge myself totally.
7. I think, in theory, I might be a muse. Not in a mystical way but because I can list off tons of ideas for things or stories to write or images to draw but when I go to start them, it's mad difficult to do but so easy when it's for someone else.
8. When I was a kid, I hated my hair, so I ignored it. Now that I'm a bit older I've found that I like my hair and don't really mind the curls anymore. So much. Anyways - it's nice when I'm out in the rain or it's being dramatically wind-swept. *nods*
9. I haven't had my hair cut properly (and by that I mean having loads cut) since I was about 7.
10. I used to travel 15 miles a day up to school and then 15 miles back home; just to go to an integrated school.
11. When I get talking to people I seem confident and even sort of rambling but it's only a temporary reaction - I actually terrified and am covering up like woah.
12. Just three years ago I couldn't have talked to anyone without my face blistering this radioactive red colour.
13. I get so excited when I learn I'm going to meet people I've never met before only to get wildly intimidated and very scared in seconds. And when this happens, I don't talk a lot because I can't find the words.
14. Sometimes, I'm just so glad at the thought of getting out of Northern Ireland, my heart almost stops.
15. I've always said I wouldn't have kids but I have a feeling I'll have a flock of them when I'm older.
16. I crave affection in a mad way. I love to be hugged and to have my hand held or cuddled or my hair ruffled - it means a lot to me.
17. If I could I'd have wings.
18. I feel so stupid and so young sometimes in comparison to people - especially people I like and admire, which in turn is most of the people I know
19. I get so madly concerned for people I love that I have actual palpatations.
20. I have broken all four of my wrist bones and therefore, in rainy weather, my wrists can ache and need supports.
Huh. Also mum just said to me, after me going and walking in the rain again to post letters, "You look lovely". Obviously delusional woman - I'm in my PJs, a towel around my shoulders, I need to do my eyebrows, I'm all rain-covered. Crazy, crazy mum ^_^
Oh look - last night's post!
[Last night]I did two and a half hours of ironing voluntarily today, just so mum wouldn't get up and do it. Huh.
hartclanpaladin's birthday folks! Everyone give him a hand - or catgirls ^_~ Your Jedi Mind Tricks don't work on me Skywalker, ahahahaha~!I feel better. Slightly. However life keeps smacking me in the face with
I now have a blister on my thumb of my drawing hand (the right one) but I'm determined to get the drawbles done. *nods*
The next time Camp Fuck You Die is opening up for applications I am there like a bullet. A BULLET.
Now, since it's going around....
1. I have become famous (or infamous?) for walking home:
in the rain without using my umbrella,
wearing a top hat,
ranting on my phone about something bizarre or
singing loudly - usually in English, sometimes in Japanese.
2. I need music on when I do things - like when I clean or when I do homework or...anything really. I listen to music almost constantly except when I'm around people.
3. I have a wall of photos - Zal's seen it - of the people I love and random funny photos. My dream is to have a photograph of everyone I know and love on that wall someday
4. My parents went through a stage of thinking I was gay and questioning me on it. They're over it now...I think.
5. My friends talked and they agreed that I can come off as intimidating. It's a first impression thing.
6. When I fall for something (like a fandom) I fall hard and I fall fast and submerge myself totally.
7. I think, in theory, I might be a muse. Not in a mystical way but because I can list off tons of ideas for things or stories to write or images to draw but when I go to start them, it's mad difficult to do but so easy when it's for someone else.
8. When I was a kid, I hated my hair, so I ignored it. Now that I'm a bit older I've found that I like my hair and don't really mind the curls anymore. So much. Anyways - it's nice when I'm out in the rain or it's being dramatically wind-swept. *nods*
9. I haven't had my hair cut properly (and by that I mean having loads cut) since I was about 7.
10. I used to travel 15 miles a day up to school and then 15 miles back home; just to go to an integrated school.
11. When I get talking to people I seem confident and even sort of rambling but it's only a temporary reaction - I actually terrified and am covering up like woah.
12. Just three years ago I couldn't have talked to anyone without my face blistering this radioactive red colour.
13. I get so excited when I learn I'm going to meet people I've never met before only to get wildly intimidated and very scared in seconds. And when this happens, I don't talk a lot because I can't find the words.
14. Sometimes, I'm just so glad at the thought of getting out of Northern Ireland, my heart almost stops.
15. I've always said I wouldn't have kids but I have a feeling I'll have a flock of them when I'm older.
16. I crave affection in a mad way. I love to be hugged and to have my hand held or cuddled or my hair ruffled - it means a lot to me.
17. If I could I'd have wings.
18. I feel so stupid and so young sometimes in comparison to people - especially people I like and admire, which in turn is most of the people I know
19. I get so madly concerned for people I love that I have actual palpatations.
20. I have broken all four of my wrist bones and therefore, in rainy weather, my wrists can ache and need supports.
Huh. Also mum just said to me, after me going and walking in the rain again to post letters, "You look lovely". Obviously delusional woman - I'm in my PJs, a towel around my shoulders, I need to do my eyebrows, I'm all rain-covered. Crazy, crazy mum ^_^
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Date: 2005-10-20 05:51 am (UTC)Sounds like meself.
I had straight hair last life, as straight as bone.
This life, it's wavy 'n all.
I come to deal with it
Still, I rather imagined you with some level of curls in your hair.
Not that that's a bad thing mind you >~_^<
Hey. Cool. Neither have I, really >^^<
Now, when you tell young'uns that, you'll actually not be exaggerating with the 15 miles thing. That's got points =P~
I see.. I felt nervousness when we talked. I may have been exuding some myself. This seems to me as if I had heard it before I read it. I did read it awhile ago though, so that may be temporal disruption at work.
Something useful to say... hm..
Rambling isn't exactly a bad way to do it.
I either ramble, or shut up entirely, and by rambling, I can at least collect data to analyze later.
You're quite intriguing.
I don't know why I said that,
But it flew from my fingertips.
Aww. Blushing is cute, but as I know, the emotions accompanying it aren't.
It's a cruel truth. Still. It shows, you can conquer anything about yourself that you choose to. Ne? You's a capabilix0r, which means, j00 c4n d0 1t!!
You aren't alone in that pattern. It's one I'm familliar with. Not only in myself, but in others.
I wonder if I can say anything to help you take heart.
What I try to do.. What DO I try to do.. Well, I guess really I think up a new plan every time.
If I *can* meditate, that's best.
But quiet moments are hard to get in moments like that...
I don't have any advice. >._.<
Or anything to say >@_@<
Hey. Am I doing it right now? I am, aren't I...
Wow, I agree with this one.
I wanna get gone from this country.
Most likely on a permanent basis. Conventions permitting visitation.
I want to just wander, find some other place, find no place at all. Just.. wander.. Is that a wanderlust? probably.. definitely.
*laughs wickedly*
I'm totally spamming you with comments I think...