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klenaI tried to post this 5 times last night. But the computer, actually the internet had a fit so I gave up....Huh, I think this is the earliest I've been up since I got home from Florida. Huh.
Oh look - last night's post!
[Last night]I did two and a half hours of ironing voluntarily today, just so mum wouldn't get up and do it. Huh.
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hartclanpaladin's birthday folks! Everyone give him a hand - or catgirls ^_~ Your Jedi Mind Tricks don't work on me Skywalker, ahahahaha~!
I feel better. Slightly. However life keeps smacking me in the face witha giant kipper reminders that I'm growing up. Bollocks to the power of bollocks, my friends!
I now have a blister on my thumb of my drawing hand (the right one) but I'm determined to get the drawbles done. *nods*
The next time Camp Fuck You Die is opening up for applications I am there like a bullet. A BULLET.
Now, since it's going around....
1. I have become famous (or infamous?) for walking home:
in the rain without using my umbrella,
wearing a top hat,
ranting on my phone about something bizarre or
singing loudly - usually in English, sometimes in Japanese.
2. I need music on when I do things - like when I clean or when I do homework or...anything really. I listen to music almost constantly except when I'm around people.
3. I have a wall of photos - Zal's seen it - of the people I love and random funny photos. My dream is to have a photograph of everyone I know and love on that wall someday
4. My parents went through a stage of thinking I was gay and questioning me on it. They're over it now...I think.
5. My friends talked and they agreed that I can come off as intimidating. It's a first impression thing.
6. When I fall for something (like a fandom) I fall hard and I fall fast and submerge myself totally.
7. I think, in theory, I might be a muse. Not in a mystical way but because I can list off tons of ideas for things or stories to write or images to draw but when I go to start them, it's mad difficult to do but so easy when it's for someone else.
8. When I was a kid, I hated my hair, so I ignored it. Now that I'm a bit older I've found that I like my hair and don't really mind the curls anymore. So much. Anyways - it's nice when I'm out in the rain or it's being dramatically wind-swept. *nods*
9. I haven't had my hair cut properly (and by that I mean having loads cut) since I was about 7.
10. I used to travel 15 miles a day up to school and then 15 miles back home; just to go to an integrated school.
11. When I get talking to people I seem confident and even sort of rambling but it's only a temporary reaction - I actually terrified and am covering up like woah.
12. Just three years ago I couldn't have talked to anyone without my face blistering this radioactive red colour.
13. I get so excited when I learn I'm going to meet people I've never met before only to get wildly intimidated and very scared in seconds. And when this happens, I don't talk a lot because I can't find the words.
14. Sometimes, I'm just so glad at the thought of getting out of Northern Ireland, my heart almost stops.
15. I've always said I wouldn't have kids but I have a feeling I'll have a flock of them when I'm older.
16. I crave affection in a mad way. I love to be hugged and to have my hand held or cuddled or my hair ruffled - it means a lot to me.
17. If I could I'd have wings.
18. I feel so stupid and so young sometimes in comparison to people - especially people I like and admire, which in turn is most of the people I know
19. I get so madly concerned for people I love that I have actual palpatations.
20. I have broken all four of my wrist bones and therefore, in rainy weather, my wrists can ache and need supports.
Huh. Also mum just said to me, after me going and walking in the rain again to post letters, "You look lovely". Obviously delusional woman - I'm in my PJs, a towel around my shoulders, I need to do my eyebrows, I'm all rain-covered. Crazy, crazy mum ^_^
Oh look - last night's post!
[Last night]I did two and a half hours of ironing voluntarily today, just so mum wouldn't get up and do it. Huh.
hartclanpaladin's birthday folks! Everyone give him a hand - or catgirls ^_~ Your Jedi Mind Tricks don't work on me Skywalker, ahahahaha~!I feel better. Slightly. However life keeps smacking me in the face with
I now have a blister on my thumb of my drawing hand (the right one) but I'm determined to get the drawbles done. *nods*
The next time Camp Fuck You Die is opening up for applications I am there like a bullet. A BULLET.
Now, since it's going around....
1. I have become famous (or infamous?) for walking home:
in the rain without using my umbrella,
wearing a top hat,
ranting on my phone about something bizarre or
singing loudly - usually in English, sometimes in Japanese.
2. I need music on when I do things - like when I clean or when I do homework or...anything really. I listen to music almost constantly except when I'm around people.
3. I have a wall of photos - Zal's seen it - of the people I love and random funny photos. My dream is to have a photograph of everyone I know and love on that wall someday
4. My parents went through a stage of thinking I was gay and questioning me on it. They're over it now...I think.
5. My friends talked and they agreed that I can come off as intimidating. It's a first impression thing.
6. When I fall for something (like a fandom) I fall hard and I fall fast and submerge myself totally.
7. I think, in theory, I might be a muse. Not in a mystical way but because I can list off tons of ideas for things or stories to write or images to draw but when I go to start them, it's mad difficult to do but so easy when it's for someone else.
8. When I was a kid, I hated my hair, so I ignored it. Now that I'm a bit older I've found that I like my hair and don't really mind the curls anymore. So much. Anyways - it's nice when I'm out in the rain or it's being dramatically wind-swept. *nods*
9. I haven't had my hair cut properly (and by that I mean having loads cut) since I was about 7.
10. I used to travel 15 miles a day up to school and then 15 miles back home; just to go to an integrated school.
11. When I get talking to people I seem confident and even sort of rambling but it's only a temporary reaction - I actually terrified and am covering up like woah.
12. Just three years ago I couldn't have talked to anyone without my face blistering this radioactive red colour.
13. I get so excited when I learn I'm going to meet people I've never met before only to get wildly intimidated and very scared in seconds. And when this happens, I don't talk a lot because I can't find the words.
14. Sometimes, I'm just so glad at the thought of getting out of Northern Ireland, my heart almost stops.
15. I've always said I wouldn't have kids but I have a feeling I'll have a flock of them when I'm older.
16. I crave affection in a mad way. I love to be hugged and to have my hand held or cuddled or my hair ruffled - it means a lot to me.
17. If I could I'd have wings.
18. I feel so stupid and so young sometimes in comparison to people - especially people I like and admire, which in turn is most of the people I know
19. I get so madly concerned for people I love that I have actual palpatations.
20. I have broken all four of my wrist bones and therefore, in rainy weather, my wrists can ache and need supports.
Huh. Also mum just said to me, after me going and walking in the rain again to post letters, "You look lovely". Obviously delusional woman - I'm in my PJs, a towel around my shoulders, I need to do my eyebrows, I'm all rain-covered. Crazy, crazy mum ^_^
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the circle is now complete.....
Date: 2005-09-30 10:36 am (UTC)Cursed Jedi mind tricks don't work after all.....
Does this mean I won't get the orange sherbert?
XP
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Date: 2005-09-30 10:38 am (UTC)Yes they do - I was just having a relapse, ha ha!
Of course orange sherbert for you XD XD XD
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Date: 2005-09-30 10:51 am (UTC)Re: the circle is now complete.....
Date: 2005-09-30 06:45 pm (UTC)Did someone ask for catgirls?
*randomly vanishes again*
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Date: 2005-09-30 06:54 pm (UTC)My parents always liked to ask me if there was "anything more" going on between me and my best friend. They should have perhaps tried asking me more direct questions ^_~
20. I have broken all four of my wrist bones and therefore, in rainy weather, my wrists can ache and need supports.
How did you do that?
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Date: 2005-11-12 09:31 pm (UTC)I broke my right wrist slipping on monkey bars. It was November and I was wearing gloves and racing my brother around this little obstacle course thing and slipped and snapped it!
Left wrist - I was 12 and there was a wet patch on the wooden floor of our school hall at the first ever disco. And guess who slipped!
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Date: 2005-10-01 04:49 am (UTC)HELL YES! We should app together. I finally decided what character I wanna apply for! And I was gonna do it last time they have open apps...but the damn mods went and held submissions while I was out of town last week. That, and I've not written her post yet. Um. Yeah.
I have so many things I could say to the rest of your posting that I just couldn't even begin. I shall, however, continue to feel them. =^^= And, you and Tro totally have this knack for feeling the exact same way I do about just about anything.
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Date: 2005-11-12 09:31 pm (UTC)Big kisses for being feeling twins!
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Date: 2005-10-20 05:09 am (UTC)I think these things are nifty,
walking in the rain feels good, I do it whenever possible.
I don't have a top hat, but I think seeing one is a pretty interesting thing, given how out of place they are.
Rants are always good, you know that.
And singing loudly is like music to my ears... wait.. it *IS* music to my ears.
Music is great like this, I have it on for most of my time alive I think, and I've got it in my head if it's not on outside it. I'll sing, dance, or just make rhythm noises at random. Sometimes I wonder if I got bit by a radioactive synthesiser as a kid.
I wanna see the wall! Wanna be onna wall. If I hadda wall, you'd be on it, providing I had a picture, and a place that I saw fit to hang 'em.
Don't trust the place I'm in now, therefor, to hang those I love there in pictorial form would be, well, rude.
My parents really found out this life. My mum was in my room, sees Ghost In The Shell wallscroll, says, 'well that's typical of a teenage boy', I says, 'provided they're straight', she says 'aren't you', I says 'no, I'm bi. What of it?'. and such is such.
It was at another time I addressed the issue that I'm not a boy.
Aww. I sympathsise. You dinnae intimidate me. You rather enchanted me. But then.. Well, I sympathise, as I said, I've come off intimidating when I didn't mean to.
I can empathise. Again. This is true for me, not only with fandoms, but with people. As, perhaps you may have noticed, when I fall for someone, I fall pretty deeply, and despite my wanting to resist the *fall*, I can rarely say no to the feelings that come. so I welcome them, as I welcome new input.. As I welcome new rambles.
You teach me as I observe, even if I also teach you.
Mean it something that I say so?
I say so.
Such, I feel I must say.
I have fallen, I admit it I say.
Enchanted this day..
Hmm, that could be a song
I have been compulsively making tunes of late.
Inspiratory in relipification.
Thanks ^_^
You are a muse! In a mystical way too. You've so thoroughly enchanted me that it speaks in my dreams and makes me wish to twine stories with you in a way that is both dark and twisted, beautiful and sublime. Is that a good or bad thing? Or is it either. Maybe it is just an indescribable facet of raw existential potential.
It makes me both dream and shiver anticipatorily. It's pretty intense, >@.o<
(continued cause of LJ-lackofspace)
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Date: 2005-10-20 05:51 am (UTC)Sounds like meself.
I had straight hair last life, as straight as bone.
This life, it's wavy 'n all.
I come to deal with it
Still, I rather imagined you with some level of curls in your hair.
Not that that's a bad thing mind you >~_^<
Hey. Cool. Neither have I, really >^^<
Now, when you tell young'uns that, you'll actually not be exaggerating with the 15 miles thing. That's got points =P~
I see.. I felt nervousness when we talked. I may have been exuding some myself. This seems to me as if I had heard it before I read it. I did read it awhile ago though, so that may be temporal disruption at work.
Something useful to say... hm..
Rambling isn't exactly a bad way to do it.
I either ramble, or shut up entirely, and by rambling, I can at least collect data to analyze later.
You're quite intriguing.
I don't know why I said that,
But it flew from my fingertips.
Aww. Blushing is cute, but as I know, the emotions accompanying it aren't.
It's a cruel truth. Still. It shows, you can conquer anything about yourself that you choose to. Ne? You's a capabilix0r, which means, j00 c4n d0 1t!!
You aren't alone in that pattern. It's one I'm familliar with. Not only in myself, but in others.
I wonder if I can say anything to help you take heart.
What I try to do.. What DO I try to do.. Well, I guess really I think up a new plan every time.
If I *can* meditate, that's best.
But quiet moments are hard to get in moments like that...
I don't have any advice. >._.<
Or anything to say >@_@<
Hey. Am I doing it right now? I am, aren't I...
Wow, I agree with this one.
I wanna get gone from this country.
Most likely on a permanent basis. Conventions permitting visitation.
I want to just wander, find some other place, find no place at all. Just.. wander.. Is that a wanderlust? probably.. definitely.
*laughs wickedly*
I'm totally spamming you with comments I think...
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Date: 2005-10-20 05:52 am (UTC)I've often said I wouldn't,
I've sometimes said I would, given some circumstances.
I think it's moot now, I'm probably sterile.
For the better. I'd not want to pass the genes on that I have. I'd rather pass on my knowledge.
You will know when the time comes, what you want. I think thus.
That is natural, I think. I can relate. (this is what, the billionth time I've said that to you in one form or another?)
I like those things, to be the one receiving, to be the one giving.
At some point, in my long span of lives, I was taught to use that craving in a sexual way, and though I still know how, well, I dunno how to express my feelings towards it.
I do *like* the feeling..
It's not, however, any more or less meaningful than the simple sort of aforementioned affection. It's just.. Another way of saying it?
Well, this is one that I've said to lots of people, but been understood... twice? Heh.
I'll bet a grand on a pair of jacks, won't I...
I feel ramblicated tonight
Maybe it's a well of positive to fill up the void created by turmoil in my elsewise life?
Maybe I feel embaressed. Maybe I don't.. Maybe I'm saying maybe too much. *boggle*
Yay, simple question >^_^<
Wings are teh spiff! I'd love to fly, even though I never did. It would be liberating. But wings on me would feel vulnerable. To have them torn would be a terrible thing. My ears were pretty bad enough...
If it makes any difference, not only do I know that feeling, but you don't come off as either stupid *or* young to me. And I like and admire ye.
Admirable, in a world where many are so apathetic that other people don't mean a shit to them.
And, (surprise), yet another one of these that I can say, 'hey, me too'.
I'm sounding pretty lame with all this 'me too'ing.. Or maybe not, I'll leave that up to you.
Aiyayaiyah.
Wrist damage. >;.;<
It hurts, but you still with them produce much that is really indescribably nifty
Well, I lie.
It isn't indescribale, just beyond my scope right now. I could do it, given lots of time to gawk.
Wow. I made it all into two comments.
An amply polypolar fluctuation between 'ooh, me too!', 'wow, you're cool', and gibberical gawking.
*haha*
Love to ya like mad crazyness, you awesome beast you >^^<