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I'm gone.
I have to go to the doctor. Just slept 15 hours. And cried when I woke up because I was pregnant and then I wasn't.
I don't...
Who know who you are:
I'm sorry
I'm a horrible person. I'm sorry.
I have to go to the doctor. Just slept 15 hours. And cried when I woke up because I was pregnant and then I wasn't.
I don't...
Who know who you are:
I'm sorry
I'm a horrible person. I'm sorry.
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Date: 2005-07-29 11:53 pm (UTC)I like the name
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Date: 2005-07-27 08:44 pm (UTC)But then I would be a bleeding hippocryte, in a very literal sense.
I can't say that I understand, but I don't.
Even though I'm probably not a good person to talk to about what's troubling you, I would like to try.
I hope that things go better for you.
I care about you.
Please don't go down a path that will destroy you.
Fuck. I'm crying now. Please don't feel resposible though.
I feel a burning in my heart as it twists me inside that wants you to be happy and well.
I'll always be there if you want my words, or the use of my ears and compassion.
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Date: 2005-07-29 11:59 pm (UTC)I know that you don't understand. I think I'm the only one who does at the minute.
I do wish that you wouldn't put yourself down. Your comments help me so much - I can't tell you.
Things are looking up and I'm clear and I care about you too.
I don't plan to go down a path that will destroy me - it's not the way I am. I have too many concerns to do something like that. It's probably a saving grace - after a fashion.
I'm so sorry - I do feel responsible that you're crying. But I'm amazed that you knew I would feel responsible.
I will always need you, and I whole-heartedly appreciate your kind words and concern.
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Date: 2005-07-30 09:26 pm (UTC)Even if I do not understand, it does not dull the yearning of my heart and soul to help in some way.
I blush. Well, I shall always try not to put myself down. I do, and I was trying when I wrote this. They slip through sometimes. It is a pattern learned over a long time. Longer than I have taken thus far at attempting to break the habit.
I am gladdened by your words, your comment, as always I am.
I would certainly agree that the will not to go down a path of destruction is a wonderful grace. However I do note that it is not often planned to go down the path someone ends up on, so one's decisions are as important as their plans. That said, I trust you. Your vibes are really astounding to me.
I just had a feeling that you would feel responsible. Honestly, I was crying much that day, for many reasons. I would not hold you responsible for it.
My words for you are sprung from the feelings in my heart, thus, they are as eternal as my being. I believe in you, and I shall for all the forseeable future.
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Date: 2005-08-03 09:49 pm (UTC)I understand that you want to help. But you do, just with your comments and concern - really. I work through this stuff on my own because I have to - because once I let others know, I have guilt.
I understand that self-depreciation is a difficult pattern to break - I try too.
I understand what you are warning me of - that if I don't keep my head, the road could sweep me off my feet, ne? - but I have a confidence that I don't speak of in that I believe I have a high-level of self-preservation, even in the lowest of times.
I am amazed my vibes are astounding to you as I don't really percieve myself to have vibes.
I believe in you too, love.
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Date: 2005-08-03 11:26 pm (UTC)And though I cannot help but have concern at times,
I feel that your nature is quite a lot more sensical than much of the world that I have seen. Comparison to the world at large may not be much praise, but you should certainly believe that everything has vibes.
I can perceive them in everything. even a keyboard has vibes.
Yours yet make the tingling transcendence of love make me feel warm in the chest.
I shall than be what it is that I am naturally.