klena | He had many questions like children often do

Tell me all your thoughts on God...
Tell me am I very far?

So I find myself in the mood to ramble slightly tonight as I haven't been around LJ and the net for, oh I dunno 2 months? That's ridiculous. Really fucking ridiculous. And do you know what the reason is? One word people: Work.

But now is not the time nor the place to discuss the work thing. Because I'll bitch about it but there's nothing beyond it. I love the place. I hate the place. I can't escape from it. That sums up the major points.

I don't know what to ramble about now that I have the time or the energy. (And how do I have the energy after an 8 day straight and being out? Bizarre.)

OK. I guess the thing that's on my mind the most is how much I've changed in the last few months. Since starting McDonalds, if I'm truly honest. But I think the change was implemented first by

darthzal's visit here last year...and then Florida where my girls started dressing me like a girl when it was too hot to be anything else.

But...yeah. Physically there's no denying I've changed. I've lost weight. Quite a fair bit if I'm honest because of work. I'm not sitting around snacking anymore and I'm moving around more and I walk the 1 and 1/2 miles to work most days and McD's has sorta destroyed my appetite. But...I mean there's more to the weight loss than I thought.

I never really had a problem with my weight before Work but then again, before I worked I never had much of an active social life or even people to go out with in my own town. So when I lost weight I started taking more of an interest in clothing and 'looking like a girl' and so. Well, I started wearing - oh dear Lord - low cut tops and tight jeans! And I started trying out the Make-Up Thing and Doing Things To My Hair.

And yeah, I started going out with the ones from work and My Girls and, eventually, Matt. And I've started taking more care with my appearance.

But besides the outward changes I know I'm different inside. I mean, I think I'm more outgoing and I suggest things like us all going out or whatever. And, I mean, I have a boyfriend. I never thought I'd have a boyfriend. I never seemed to be 'adequate' material really. And I'm still not entirely over that - I mean, I'm not special and can't really see why people - why Matt - would go out with me but...yeah.

I guess I'm growing up.

And then there was OMFG!DRAMA with me and Matt but only because we weren't talking and stuff. But...that's starting to change. Fingers crossed for me folks!

And I'm sure I had more to say but my brain is mush and I'm getting my hair done tomorrow and my best friend of 15 years turned 20 yesterday and my Boss Brian left work FOREVER today so my head's a little turned. So I'm leaving to talk to

hybrid_xisha more and then pass out.

Love you all~!