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klenaToday was Margaret's funeral. And I just kept tearing up and not crying - because no one else was and because I knew once I started I wouldn't stop. When they brought her out of the house to go into the hearse, I just watched and could feel the tears running down my cheeks.
It was awful - and then mum dragged me in after the funeral to talk to Bert. And I could barely speak - just whispered around my not-crying. Of course it was made slightly better by Bert telling me I had to come visit now or he wouldn't talk to me. ^_^ And asked was the reason why I was never around anymore was because I had a boyfriend. Oh, so mortified. But it was funny and good and a couple of us laughed about it.
Oh God.
And I'm working 6 days this week. I did my closes. Today is the first day I've had off - and the funeral didn't really make it feel like a day off. Especially as work rang me during the funeral. Good thing I didn't bring my phone with me.
But this mobile rang me and I rang back 20 minutes later and it was Gerard asking me to come in tomorrow. And I said I was. And there was confusion. I agreed, with Nikki, to do a 12 - 3 tomorrow to help Gerard out but Gerard didn't know apparently. And then he went;
"So...how many shifts are you doing this week?"
"Including tomorrow's 12 - 3? 6."
"...I'll try and get you off on Friday."
"Cool - thanks."
So...yeah. And June's picking me up from work and we're going on a late night shopping trip to Belfast. So, that'll be good.
And...Yeah.
Bit off at the minute - sorry.
But on the plus side...Did anyone else see Robert Patterson run and straddle Ivan/Krum in the Goblet of Fire extras? That was pretty cool. ^_^
Bed. Bed. Bed.
Drawbles will be posted soon.
Gone.
It was awful - and then mum dragged me in after the funeral to talk to Bert. And I could barely speak - just whispered around my not-crying. Of course it was made slightly better by Bert telling me I had to come visit now or he wouldn't talk to me. ^_^ And asked was the reason why I was never around anymore was because I had a boyfriend. Oh, so mortified. But it was funny and good and a couple of us laughed about it.
Oh God.
And I'm working 6 days this week. I did my closes. Today is the first day I've had off - and the funeral didn't really make it feel like a day off. Especially as work rang me during the funeral. Good thing I didn't bring my phone with me.
But this mobile rang me and I rang back 20 minutes later and it was Gerard asking me to come in tomorrow. And I said I was. And there was confusion. I agreed, with Nikki, to do a 12 - 3 tomorrow to help Gerard out but Gerard didn't know apparently. And then he went;
"So...how many shifts are you doing this week?"
"Including tomorrow's 12 - 3? 6."
"...I'll try and get you off on Friday."
"Cool - thanks."
So...yeah. And June's picking me up from work and we're going on a late night shopping trip to Belfast. So, that'll be good.
And...Yeah.
Bit off at the minute - sorry.
But on the plus side...Did anyone else see Robert Patterson run and straddle Ivan/Krum in the Goblet of Fire extras? That was pretty cool. ^_^
Bed. Bed. Bed.
Drawbles will be posted soon.
Gone.
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Date: 2006-03-23 02:16 am (UTC)*Hugs* I'm so glad you seem to be doing okay, despite. Of course it hurts and you can't show it openly to everyone for as long as you would like to be sad, or else they start saying "Maybe you should see someone about it," but at least you're not just hiding it all right now, either. Did that make sense? I got no clue how else to say it.