I could follow you and search the rubble

It's nearly 2:30 in the morning
and
I've sort of been busy today
but
I'm still awake
even though
my brain and eyes are tired
but
not tired enough to curl under the duvet
so
I am awake
and
feeling alone
and
hurting in my heart cavity
because
someone who doesn't want to hurt me
seems to
end up doing it anyway
and
I don't know what to do
so
I sit here
and
try not to feel too miserable
but
it isn't really working
so
I am reading Pictures For Sad Children
trying
to take my mind off my problems
but
it is not really working