We can live like Jack and Sally if you want...

To understand how utterly lame I am - I only got that lyric today *points to subject line*. Y'see folks, as much of a sin as it is, The Nightmare Before Christmas is in no way as big over here as it is in the US. It was actually quite a learning experience for me.

Amazing.

I am sick. I'm still slightly jet-lagged, my manga shelf is now overflowing and I can't really walk on my floor again. Plus I have a stomach bug. Not entirely awesome.

And my best friend of 15 years had a leaving party on Wednesday as she was going to Spain until Christmas. I didn't even know she was leaving but I made it anyways. And then got all teared up in the car home because she got teared up first. I can't actually talk about it without my voice giving out on me. I don't even know why - she'll be back for Christmas...

People are really leaving me. And I feel like I'm doing nothing with my life. I don't even know if half my friends have gone to university yet and where they're living if they are.

I feel useless.

Actually, I feel left behind, sorta.

Things are really ending aren't they?

And I'm totally doubting my art skills for the Rising Stars of Manga competition.

So I'm not in a fantastic place at the minute. I think the fact that I've left high school forever is hitting me.

I feel alone. And annoyed at my emo-whining. Sorry guys. Didn't mean to. I'm going to bed. Now is not the time for this.

Need to know if you're letting go - it's all right, it's all right, it's all right...

I've lost my words again. Which is a good thing because then I would forget my purpose for writing this entry. It's, once again, for the Rising Stars of Manga competition. And I'm looking for answers:

1. What do you imagine the apolcalypse to be like? Or is there some book or manga or movie that has laid it out like you thought?

2. Does anyone have any images of Gabriel from Constantine? (the movie, not the graphic novel)

3. The group of kids experiencing the apocalypse - uniform or non?

4. I was thinking of a mixed group of around 7 or 8 people (bear in mind, some will die). Is that too much?

5. I need names! For anything like streets or the people or teachers or the school. Anything would be appreciated and worked in some way (that goes for all suggestions too!)

That's about it. I'm tired, even though I got up at 2 today. However, the stomach bug is clearly up. Slightly.

Doesn't matter really.

OK. When you see this, paste some Shakespeare in your journal
No, no, no, no! Come, let's away to prison;
We two alone will sing like birds i'th'cage:
When thou dost ask me blessing, I'll kneel down,
And ask of thee forgiveness: so we'll live,
And pray, and sing, and tell old tales, and laugh
At gilded butterflies and hear poor rogues
Talk of court news; and we'll talk with them too,
Who loses and who wins; who's in, who's out:
And take upon's the mystery of things,
As if we were God's spies: and we'll wear out
In a wall'd prison, packs and sects of great ones
That ebb and flow by the moon.
King Lear, Lear speaking, Act V, Scene III

And I've seen the poetry meme twice, so two poems.

(tragic one first)
( Mid-term Break - Seamus Heaney )

And now, a love poem. In a way. trowicia, this is practically Wolfstar!

( The Reassurance - Thom Gunn )