You don't what it's been like...

Do you know what? Fuck all this. I am going out to a pub quiz tonight, the girls are coming down tomorrow and said-male from earlier can go AND FUCK HIMSELF.

As I told D - who I am thrilled for as he passed his first year of uni! Well done donal - why can't I just have a guy who has the guts to come up to me and say 'I fancy you.' Why all the sneaking around? Why can't I tell anyone?

Bollocks to him. If he sends me anything more tonight, it's being ignored. I don't want to feel this way all night.

I'm friends-locking the previous entries for today. Purely for my own peace of mind and not just because he told me not to tell anyone. Balls to that. June is finding out if she rings.

MEN~!

I feel like such a girl

There's dry blood on your wrist...Your dry blood on my fingertips

It's not fair.

It's not.

No guy should be able to affect me like this! I knew it was him on the phone and I answered and just spent half an hour talking to him...Talking about it. I explained some stuff - he...I dunno.

Christ, I'm practically blushing.

ARRRGH

He wants to meet up on Saturday when he's in Downpatrick.

I'm definitely going to see him on Sunday at Ruth's leaving barbecue.

Arse. Arse bollocks tit. Fuck shit piss balls.