the chase is all you know

[klena]

and all you see is where is you could be

dealing with the possibilities that will never happen and wondering why someone so similar to yourself gets chosen above yourself. the inabilty to be anything less than their mother, their support, their iron pillar when you are falling apart and wanting someone to stay with you that night, sleep beside you, hold you (not sexually because you know they don't feel like that for you)) and tell you that you'll be okay.

you struggle with the desire not to turn yourself inside out for them, not because they want you to, but because you wonder is maybe you do then maybe you'll be good enough.

simple words that cut to the core of your cells

there is no addiction strong enough for you - you are fated to pretend. in groups this is easier but when you are in a pair, you can't do it. Pretence fades and truth prevails, and o, how you curse it.

Comments

[marlinkhylacat]

You should email me with such stuff and things. As always, ALWAYS HERE. =^^=

[threnodaemis.livejournal.com]

Seconded.

[trowicia.livejournal.com]

I love you! If you ever need to talk or vent, you know where to find me. ♥

[rogue-dreams.livejournal.com]

You only ever had to tell me you felt this way about me twin-soul XD <3

Seriously though babe, serious cuddles are instore on Friday. I miss you!!

[ash (from livejournal.com)]

You'll be ok Kat.
Love you.
(remember IRL is 4 n00bz)
xxx