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klenaI am desperately in love with this song an awful lot right now. I'm guessing it's because it reminds me of wandering and being in awe of the world changing around you and people mistaking your awe for being lost (which awe and the sudden rush of emotion in your chest can be like - being lost and not having a solid grip on yourself but at that moment that's okay, you're happy with that) and the world changes. The world changes and maybe you are a little lost sometimes but that doesn't matter because you can always find your way back and your hometown is always there.
Two of my days off have fallen in a row which is awesome and wonderful and I've been awake for 3 hours now (thanks to the howling wind and the pouring rain and my head being cleaved in two and Matt texting me because Gerard wanted to know if I wanted a wee shift today) and i feel all dizzy and blurrysmudged at the edges because we had no ordinary painkillers and i took some of mum's which are, like, horse tranquilisers or something. Strange!
I got a letter from Jules today. Jules, for those not in the know, is one of My Girls who was studying abroad for the year in Guelph in Canada and got home on Thursday. June and I surprised her after we finished our respective shifts on Saturday and sat in her house from 6pm until midnight. MIDNIGHT. just gossiping.
Lying between two of your favourite people and feeling good in your own skin - unafraid to give voice to the things lingering beneath your skin-mask and laughing like you've never done anything else. It's like perfection.
We're all trying to meet up for dinner tonight. Which is what I am going to organise after I post this.
I am also seriously considering writing The Highwayman!bandom fic for![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
sekkritbandomlj because it sounds AWESOME even if The Highwayman ends sadly.
I am bringing this up again because I am going to be moving into a house in a few months and I am already considering the decorating. My Photo Wall. For those who didn't know, I used to have a massive photo wall in my bedroom here in N.I before I went to uni and I also created on when I went to uni. (and i actually went and looked up the photos for you)
except obviously i am going to want to redo the wall for my new house in Leeds. I want you in my new house (and it is a house - can't be a home yet, not there, haven't chosen it and we haven't put our hearts there yet) on my walls. So....who's interested in sending me photos? Or even your own photography (littleredfox and sarshin i am particularly looking at you here). I would love it if you would reply here? Please?
So my voice post seems to have gone down well! And I was thinking that I get 20 free voice posts a month which i don't want to really waste. SO! If people are interested, I will ring in LJ posts and talk. Suggest a topic you want to hear my thoughts on - want me to read one of your fics/one of my own - want me to sing? (you'll be lucky). Ask away! I am happy to whore myself out for you lot ♥
Right. I am sitting here looking like a scruffy gangster because my hair dried strangely overnight. Luv curly hair. So i am going to get dressed and start being productive....possibly.
Suggestions people~!
And now. Strange dream
The main thing about the dream was exams and the learning. Strange.
OK. So there was a bunch of us studying texts (and i don't remember most of them but i did know them) but one of the books was, like, a rewritten version of Wicked that focused entirely on Elphaba and Glinda (and it was quite a thick book and the cover was a muted golden/light tan colour) and their relationship. And towards the end of the book (i think i was with another girl as we were discussing it), as she and i wandered over the edges of cliffs near the ocean (and the ocean was beautiful and clean and the sky was clear and we were so happy together) we read these poems that had been written at the back of the book that were inspirations for the ending - and they were tragic and heartbreaking, about losing the one you love but feeling their presence and their memory in everything you did, every breath you missed and every word you didn't say. We started to cry - looking at each other and feeling our hearts break and stood hand in hand for a few moments, just devastated.
There was some more in the interim but nothing that really stood out (or that i remember now)
It then came to our exam day. And Paddy Rice (who is the second assistant head of our McDonalds) was the invigilator. We were also all separated but still close for the exam in this winding long room that half resembled my old technology room in Shimna, the lecture room I saw with Joey in Minnesota and imagined back-stages combined with a restaurant. Lots of metal and a strange almost clinical feeling to the place.
We all take our seats to do the exams and I half remember some of the questions but I chose one question that wanted us to illustrate a story I think we had read? Or maybe it was provided in the paper. Anyway the story had to do with a mermaid woman who could only be above the surface of the water during the daylight and a werewolf man that could only be out during the moonlight (there was a strange almost vampirism twist to that tale - he didn't really seem to be a full werewolf or a full human. Constantly half of both but both worlds hurt so much to him but the wolf less so but the wolf could only be out during the night). And they were so in love.
The question was "illustrate in a feasible way how the couple could be together" and i remember snorting in the dream and saying to someone (I want to say my friend Jenni who was closest to me),
"How fucking obvious - that'd obviously be during an eclipse"
And so i started to draw. i remember sketching rough outlines for the characters when people began to leave. Jenni I think had only written about three quarters of a page for her essay when she left and i panicked as i was slowly left on my own. No one told me how long the exam was so I began to work on the final piece;
she was arching out of the water, her weight on her wrists and the water droplets from her hair and the gills behind her ears and her tail and he was moving down this formation of rocks in his half-and-half form, eyes slightly closed due to the light but their mouths only an inch apart and open and desperation and longing and passion. I remember getting the sketch done when Paddy Rice came back in and told me that I had 10 minutes left and I freaked out because i really wanted to do this piece well. I ended up shouting at someone to give me a red pen and a White Out pen and I frantically used a black ink brush pen to suggests the ripples around her waist and tail and the red for her scales and the white for the sheen of the little sunlight. I remember taking a black ink pen and darkening the outline around his paws where he stood on the rocks and jerkily scratching ink in his form to highlight the dark of his fur - the darkening of his mostly-human face and his eyes were definitely human and then the test was over.
Nicki (from work) came over to me when it ended except I still held my test paper and she asked to see my essay. I told her I'd actually done the art question and flipped through my book. There were a few attempts at wolvish forms and paws and snouts on the first pages and the girl on the next (her back with her hair loose and pearls and droplets of water all in ink) and the sketches for the final piece.
And then I woke up.
WHAT WAS THAT ABOUT BRAIN??
Two of my days off have fallen in a row which is awesome and wonderful and I've been awake for 3 hours now (thanks to the howling wind and the pouring rain and my head being cleaved in two and Matt texting me because Gerard wanted to know if I wanted a wee shift today) and i feel all dizzy and blurrysmudged at the edges because we had no ordinary painkillers and i took some of mum's which are, like, horse tranquilisers or something. Strange!
I got a letter from Jules today. Jules, for those not in the know, is one of My Girls who was studying abroad for the year in Guelph in Canada and got home on Thursday. June and I surprised her after we finished our respective shifts on Saturday and sat in her house from 6pm until midnight. MIDNIGHT. just gossiping.
Lying between two of your favourite people and feeling good in your own skin - unafraid to give voice to the things lingering beneath your skin-mask and laughing like you've never done anything else. It's like perfection.
We're all trying to meet up for dinner tonight. Which is what I am going to organise after I post this.
I am also seriously considering writing The Highwayman!bandom fic for
sekkritbandomlj because it sounds AWESOME even if The Highwayman ends sadly. I am bringing this up again because I am going to be moving into a house in a few months and I am already considering the decorating. My Photo Wall. For those who didn't know, I used to have a massive photo wall in my bedroom here in N.I before I went to uni and I also created on when I went to uni. (and i actually went and looked up the photos for you)
except obviously i am going to want to redo the wall for my new house in Leeds. I want you in my new house (and it is a house - can't be a home yet, not there, haven't chosen it and we haven't put our hearts there yet) on my walls. So....who's interested in sending me photos? Or even your own photography (
littleredfox and sarshin i am particularly looking at you here). I would love it if you would reply here? Please?So my voice post seems to have gone down well! And I was thinking that I get 20 free voice posts a month which i don't want to really waste. SO! If people are interested, I will ring in LJ posts and talk. Suggest a topic you want to hear my thoughts on - want me to read one of your fics/one of my own - want me to sing? (you'll be lucky). Ask away! I am happy to whore myself out for you lot ♥
Right. I am sitting here looking like a scruffy gangster because my hair dried strangely overnight. Luv curly hair. So i am going to get dressed and start being productive....possibly.
Suggestions people~!
And now. Strange dream
The main thing about the dream was exams and the learning. Strange.
OK. So there was a bunch of us studying texts (and i don't remember most of them but i did know them) but one of the books was, like, a rewritten version of Wicked that focused entirely on Elphaba and Glinda (and it was quite a thick book and the cover was a muted golden/light tan colour) and their relationship. And towards the end of the book (i think i was with another girl as we were discussing it), as she and i wandered over the edges of cliffs near the ocean (and the ocean was beautiful and clean and the sky was clear and we were so happy together) we read these poems that had been written at the back of the book that were inspirations for the ending - and they were tragic and heartbreaking, about losing the one you love but feeling their presence and their memory in everything you did, every breath you missed and every word you didn't say. We started to cry - looking at each other and feeling our hearts break and stood hand in hand for a few moments, just devastated.
There was some more in the interim but nothing that really stood out (or that i remember now)
It then came to our exam day. And Paddy Rice (who is the second assistant head of our McDonalds) was the invigilator. We were also all separated but still close for the exam in this winding long room that half resembled my old technology room in Shimna, the lecture room I saw with Joey in Minnesota and imagined back-stages combined with a restaurant. Lots of metal and a strange almost clinical feeling to the place.
We all take our seats to do the exams and I half remember some of the questions but I chose one question that wanted us to illustrate a story I think we had read? Or maybe it was provided in the paper. Anyway the story had to do with a mermaid woman who could only be above the surface of the water during the daylight and a werewolf man that could only be out during the moonlight (there was a strange almost vampirism twist to that tale - he didn't really seem to be a full werewolf or a full human. Constantly half of both but both worlds hurt so much to him but the wolf less so but the wolf could only be out during the night). And they were so in love.
The question was "illustrate in a feasible way how the couple could be together" and i remember snorting in the dream and saying to someone (I want to say my friend Jenni who was closest to me),
"How fucking obvious - that'd obviously be during an eclipse"
And so i started to draw. i remember sketching rough outlines for the characters when people began to leave. Jenni I think had only written about three quarters of a page for her essay when she left and i panicked as i was slowly left on my own. No one told me how long the exam was so I began to work on the final piece;
she was arching out of the water, her weight on her wrists and the water droplets from her hair and the gills behind her ears and her tail and he was moving down this formation of rocks in his half-and-half form, eyes slightly closed due to the light but their mouths only an inch apart and open and desperation and longing and passion. I remember getting the sketch done when Paddy Rice came back in and told me that I had 10 minutes left and I freaked out because i really wanted to do this piece well. I ended up shouting at someone to give me a red pen and a White Out pen and I frantically used a black ink brush pen to suggests the ripples around her waist and tail and the red for her scales and the white for the sheen of the little sunlight. I remember taking a black ink pen and darkening the outline around his paws where he stood on the rocks and jerkily scratching ink in his form to highlight the dark of his fur - the darkening of his mostly-human face and his eyes were definitely human and then the test was over.
Nicki (from work) came over to me when it ended except I still held my test paper and she asked to see my essay. I told her I'd actually done the art question and flipped through my book. There were a few attempts at wolvish forms and paws and snouts on the first pages and the girl on the next (her back with her hair loose and pearls and droplets of water all in ink) and the sketches for the final piece.
And then I woke up.
WHAT WAS THAT ABOUT BRAIN??
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Date: 2008-07-01 02:47 pm (UTC)I plan on doing some letter-writing soon, so maaaybe you'll get a photo from me. ;P
Ah, you made a voice post? My friends page betrayed me and showed me no such thing. *goes to check*
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Date: 2008-07-01 08:38 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-07-01 10:07 pm (UTC)Give me a few weeks and see me dressed as a knight!
I see pics of me in the Epicshirt :)
Expo next year we'll get ALOT more pics to put on the wall :3
More voice posts!
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Date: 2008-07-01 11:27 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-07-02 02:24 am (UTC)Your dreams sound far more interesting than mine. Although I would absolutely die of joy if there was a version of Wicked like that. *___*
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Date: 2008-07-02 02:25 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-07-02 02:57 am (UTC)I loved being able to hear your voice in the phone post. I miss it and you dearly! I really don't have any requests for them. Anything with your voice is made of win.
And thank you for your well-wishes on my friend. It's been rough this past week. Eric and I have been putting in alot of time to help his family and be there. It's wearing me down a bit. At a time like this I really wish you were still here. I could use a long hug.
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Date: 2008-07-02 09:24 pm (UTC)Ooh, you should really try and draw that picture! It was such a vivid description, I'd love to see it on paper.
thanks much
Date: 2008-09-25 01:28 pm (UTC)thanks much
Date: 2008-09-28 07:58 pm (UTC)Brilliant page.
Date: 2008-10-09 09:19 am (UTC)