Couldn't seem to find any of my friends to tell my interesting stories to! (Past life)

So. As my roller-coastery tweets might communicate to people, the past two weeks have been swinging from cluster-fuck to resolution back into cluster-fuck. It's been getting a lot harder to cope the last few days, particularly with the business being quieter and our anniversary approaching and my mood dropping dramatically.

I'd been toying with making a seperate LJ filter for being in the know of The Situation, and adding some people that I trust, but I keep not doing it.
Number 1, because it'd just be filled with swearing and rage and lots of negativity
and
Number 2, because it's probably only of interest to me.
So that plan went out the window.

I keep feeling a little crazy!face though. Like I want to go and bleach all my hair and dye it some bright obnoxious colour like Clementine or to smash glass bottles against a wall or to scream lots. It's not nice.

Been wanting to pick up my sketchbook again too, and do fanart. Not anything of my own, don't feel creative enough again for that, but fanart for all the awesome "Inception" fics I've read, particularly foxxcub's non-fic fake!boyfriends and for whitehaiku's no-longer "Skeptics And Innocents" and for philosiraptors and mrsronweasley's "Becoming Joan" verse. However my sketchbook still sits on the architect desk.

Mother's Meeting this week went a little awry as rogue_dreams was unable to come as she was engaging in Epic Baking in preparation for Maelstrom and Emma was on her way to mine when she got called to the police station (she's a trainer lawyer and was on call tonight). So it was just me and Hannah, and I cooked. For those who know, I am not a confident cook and worry about fucking it up a lot. But tonight I cooked Lemon Chicken and Courgette Pasta and it was pretty fucking tasty. I am very happy with myself. Last week's Chicken and Potato pie wasn't too bad either :)

I feel absolutely fucking knackered but too wired to go to sleep yet. And there is nothing on TV. Awesome.

In conclusion

Tom Gunn - "The Reassurance"

About ten days or so
After we saw you dead
You came back in a dream
I'm alright now you said.

And it was you, although
you were fleshed out again:
You hugged us all round then,
And gave your welcoming beam.

How like you to be kind,
Seeking to reassure.
And, yes, how like my mind
To make itself secure.

And in complete contrast

From Twitter 04-20-2011

• 01:49:05: just watched "Enchanted" again, and enjoyed. I enjoyed mentally ticking off all the Disney/Fairytale references off in my head a little more
  
• 01:50:10: Now tired but feel too wired to sleep. Seriously body, sort it the fuck out, I need you to function
  
• 21:22:01: I am very lucky to have a Hannah in my life. She is a fount of wisdom instead a space cadet body. <3
  
• 23:34:46: @brainshy what is a manual? Is it a car with gears? Because I've never had lessons but I can still make the fucker move. Fact.
  

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