so long and goodnight

this time last year i got some news about someone i knew - sort of family that i had stayed with in england. when i found out last year i spent a few days upset about it and freaking out. when i went to go travelling i prayed she didn't die when i was away because i wanted to be there and to be around in case my uncle/great uncle needed me. and she had cancer and she was terminal and she's the same sort of person as my mum never stopped doing things or helping people and worked at a homeless day centre and was strong and practical and this like force of nature and she was wonderful and i sort of loved her.

she died yesterday.

might take a little longer to respond to people.

i can't believe this song has been stuck in my head for the last two fucking days and now i can't it hurts how much it fits and fuck fuck fuck