i am the drug you can't deny

[klena]

My brain hurts, I haven't showered in 6 days, my eyes are aching and my wrists are protesting against the overusage forced upon them the past 6 days.

I can't do this. I get bursts of energy, I've written 600 words from 12 to 2 but I have done nothing this hour. because I'm tired and I don't want to do this anymore.

I want to sit in bed. I want cuddles from Dave because I haven't seen him since New Year's Day. I want to fight with someone. I want to dress up and go out and have a nice night with people. I want to write my New Years Letters because I have not had the time to yet. I want to go out and play in the snow. I want to go food-shopping because my cupboards are empty.

i want.

just a pity that i can't. 45 hours to the first deadline, 48 hours to the second deadline. 2000 words to go. Half one essay and the finalisation of the second.

i'm so tired