the moon and the stars and the look in your eyes

[klena]

fandom birthday and right now i'm so far behind i think the idea will last forever. hard to justify sitting down to write, to draw, to create when outside the closed door (a barrier in it's own right) tension vibrates, heavy and breath-catching like the string of a violin plucked in an empty auditorium, the note ringing off the walls and the air and the metal of the strings. The tension is like that but without the beauty of sound. I need the noise otherwise the tension tightens in my chest, like screwing my courage to the sticking place, like adjusting an out on tune guitar string.

what do you do with this tension? I cannot ignore it, i can't when i feel it shaving my skin. I try to sooth it with a frantic melody, obnoxious and maybe not the most melodic but an attempt at such.

maybe i'll just lie back and play my own melody for a while

Comments

[threnodaemis.livejournal.com]

I know you mentioned that it's hard to justify creating when that tension permeates; that's why I recommend channeling that tense energy and redirecting it into your creativity. Focus the tension into poetry, drawing, a short story, music. That can help you deal with it and at the same time not let it affect your creativity.

I hope things get better soon, luv. In the meantime, I'm still at a loss for what to request for your fandom birthday. I'll hold off on a request so that you have time to catch up.

Love and hugs.

[do-come-in.livejournal.com]

Use the tension, use the emotion to produce.

Also, check out the new layout at super_bandom. Tell me what you think.

[marlinkhylacat]

Agree with the above comments about using the negative generate positive results!

Car is hopefully getting into the shop to be fixed at the beginning of the week, then SEND-STUFFAGE!

[hartclanpaladin.livejournal.com]

Go for it. The internal song which lies inside :)